It’s more than 4 years I’m trying to be fitted as an applicant to U.S. universities. I’m the only son of the family. Ultimately, this year I finished the qualification exams with acceptable scores, and I applied to three universities in U.S. and now waiting for their answers. My mother has started his dialysis for few months. She’s a diabetic and her doctor has told she should start the dialysis. My dad also is a diabetic and my sister too. All these events entered me to a big dilemma toward staying with family or leaving them to USA. I was thinking about it that I got it’s time now to introduce myself to Mandatory Military service in Iran. There’s a provision for families with only just one son to waive legally the military service, in order to, help his parents. Today I got it’s very complicated and with a high possibility I wouldn’t be accepted eligible for that special provision. Now, I see myself a cruel guy who decided to forget his family and just think about application and leaving Iran as soon as possible. I’m black swan.